Life On The Outernet

5.11.2024.  One month since DAY6 in KL. I have a lot to say but i don’t really know how to put my thoughts into words. But here goes.. You see, i have been a fan of DAY6 since their debut (7.9.2015) and it has been my lifelong dream to see them live in concert, and to sing along to their songs. 5.10.2024, my dream finally came true. I saw them in person, standing right there in front of my eyes. I sang along to their every song, word by word just like i have been dreaming to do since forever. 9 years of waiting, only for it to be over in just 3 hours. It was bittersweet. But it meant everything to me. To DAY6, thank you for finally coming here. Thank you for always producing great music. Thank you for staying together despite all the hardships and challenges in your journey of being DAY6. Above all, thank you for existing as DAY6. 데이식스 되어줘서 고마워요.

27 and still single. Am I scared? Am I ashamed? The answer is no. I am not. All those around me are either engaged, married, married with kids and so on. But me? I am still enjoying my life as a single woman. To be pretty honest, the main reason why i'm still not married at this age is just this; i am not ready. A very simple reason, really. I am not ready to live with one person for the rest of my life. I am not ready to give away my freedom once i got married. To make it simple, i am not ready to bear responsibilities that come with marriage. (And i really hate the fact that you have to tell your husband your every move once you got married. That is so suffocating and subtly controlling, full offense.) One more thing, i feel responsible for my parents. As the youngest in my family, i feel obligated to take care of my parents and make them happy. If i got married, i know i won't be able to meet them very often. So i came up with a new goal in life; i am go...

I think i have lost the one person i called my best friend. We haven't spoken/had a proper conversation in more than a month. He was quiet, and so was i. I thought maybe it was my fault. I waited & gone quiet for too long, resulting in him shying away from me. Maybe he thought i wasn't interested in being his bff anymore. Maybe he thought i abandoned him by not texting/talking. I did not. Maybe i was dumb for not texting him first, asking about his wellbeing. I honestly don't know what's going on with me & my life anymore. Or maybe he has a girlfriend who doesn't want him to be friends with me anymore. Or maybe i was thinking way too much & he was just simply busy with assignments & stuff. I don't fucking know anymore.. I feel like a real loser. I have a reason why i always feel like shit & i don't wanna mention it here, and he knows about it. What he doesn't know is that 'that problem' makes me feel like a sore loser. ...

I had this post in draft for almost 2 days. I really want to say many things about this particular topic, but like what my twitter bio says, I don't really know how to say things.  Okay so let's begin. From the title, do you think you know what I'm going to write about? If you follow me on twitter, I'd say you know. It's about my current obsession. The obsession I picked up about a day and a half ago. BTS' new album, "WINGS" . Yeap, that's it. That's the thing I'm gonna write about this time. I know my past posts are mostly about my interest in kpop and; you would roll your eyes before even reading it, but do I care? I still will write whatever I want to, so deal with it. *flips hijab* (lol) BTS released their 2nd full album on Oct 10, 12AM. I downloaded the album and listened to it twice before going to sleep. And I must say that WINGS is their BEST album so far, and it is THE BEST kpop album I've ever listened to. Hands...

Two days until the release of WINGS and the hype is so overwhelming, so real even I can feel the heat from all the way across south east sea. I think this comeback is the most talked about. I don't remember reading / seeing tons of articles about BTS' comeback every day before this. The hype is too much and the expectations are too damn high it makes me scared and nervous as a fan. I, too am enthusiastic about this comeback, but i'm afraid of the amount of expectations given to the boys. What if the title track turns out to be a disappointment? What if the title track doesn't live up to expactations and make more people (haters and antis) accuse and curse the boys for mediaplaying so much? I don't want that to happen. I believe in BTS and I know I can always count on them to come out with good music. They are trustworthy. I'm sure the boys too are afraid of failing to deliver. I just hope that won't be the case and I hope this album will finally give the b...

I'm about to write a blog post regarding my BFF's newly-created blogspot, LMAO. It's a task. He needs someone to give opinions on his blog & I'm gonna write it all here & then send it to him via whatsapp. The reason why I decide to write it here is because I think it's gonna be a bit long & I cannot type it all on my phone. Writing it on PC is way more comfortable & easier. So yeah. Here I go.. This is his blog. Y'all don't have to click the link if you don't want to. I'm not here to promote his blog, I'm here to clear my mission. LOL! And I still can't believe that he has a blog now, hahaha. I know he was forced to create one, but still! xD I need to answer 3 questions: 1. How do you find this blog? (design, layouts, attractiveness etc..) 2. The language the writer used. Doesn't matter if it's formal or informal, but is his/her language readable, funny, smooth etc..? 3. Let's say you're read...

I want to write something on this blog.  I want to become an active blogger like how I used to be.  But I can't do that anymore... Now, I blog once a month, once a year... There is no in between.  I might be lying if I said I don't know why I don't blog anymore, because I know exactly why.. I am lazy. That's the answer. I am lazy to blog, though I really, really want to. The second reason is because I don't know what to write. I used to have lots of ideas but now I have none. Even if I had an idea, I wouldn''t blog it because I didn't know how to write it. I think my English writing skills have deteriorated ever since I started learning Korean. I am slowly losing my ability to write in English, I can feel it. That is why I need to blog from time to time, to maintain my English skills. But then again, I'm lazy to do so. How did my English writing skills deteriorate, you ask? Well, since November 2013 I spent most of my time watchi...

I'm pretty sure I am not depressed. Maybe just a little sad, but definitely not depressed... I have a friend. A close one. Maybe the closest. Well, at least we used to be. This may be all in my head, but I think we're growing apart. We're not as close anymore. We rarely talk (or in this modern world; via whatsapp). I realized one thing; this happened since I started getting into KPOP. Our friendship/relationship isn't how it used to be. We used to talk almost everyday and about almost everything there was to talk about, especially music. But ever since I became a KPOP fan, I changed. My music preferences changed. I don't listen to the songs I used to listen to. And this took a toll on our friendship(?). We don't talk about music anymore. Because my friend hates KPOP and I don't force my friend to like it as I respect one's opinions and preferences. We ran out of topics, maybe that's why we don't talk as much. But this doesn't mean I comple...

It's May. We're almost halfway through 2016. All my friends are probably aware by now that I am a fangirl. A KPOP fangirl, and I don't hide the fact that I am indeed a KPOP fangirl. I tweet to my heart's content whenever I fangirl. Some of them might think I'm annoying as f***, but to be honest I don't give a s***. Kkkk. So as a fangirl, this month (May) proves to be such trying times for me & my poor fangirl soul. May really tests both my patience and my loyalty.  First, it involves BTS. Bangtan Sonyeondan (I'd write it in korean if i had a korean keyboard). They released a special album on May 2. It was one hell of a album. Meaning: the album is awesome. 3 new songs & several versions of already-released songs. I love them all. Okay so, they made a comeback. And frankly speaking, they do have a lot of haters (and haters "love" them because they're awesome & on their way to achieve more). As things were looking so good, sudd...

2016 marks my 3rd year in the kpop world. I'm currently stanning 7 kpop groups in total. 1. EXO 2. DAY6 3. GOT7 4. BTS 5. CNBLUE 6. Super Junior 7. BIGBANG I've noticed one thing. My 1st bias was always the rapper of the group. Mostly. My first EXO bias was Kris, before he decided to leave the group. Then my heart shifted towards Sehun, who is also the rapper (and dancer & visual) of EXO.  Then came DAY6. My 1st (and i think my ultimate) bias was/is Wonpil. But gradually, i started to have a crush on Brian. The reason is simple tho; he plays bass, he sings  and he raps. Which is soooo cool. He also speaks english. Maaaajor turn on. ;) Next is GOT7. My 1st unofficial bias was Jackson, the rapper of the group. The reason why he was my unofficial bias was i started liking Jackson before i started stanning GOT7. Then i got to know more about them and i fell for JB, the leader. He's super charming. *heart eyes* Then came BTS. It took me awhi...

Reasons why Min Suga & I belong to each other: 1. He likes to eat quietly & with his mouth close. Me too. 2. He doesn't like to speak with his mouth full. Me too. 3. He hates it when people bother him when he's sleeping. Me too. 4. He likes being lazy. Me too. 5. He likes quiet places. Me too. And... I dreamed about him for 3 days in a row & 4 times in total (as of now).  K bye now.

In May 2015, I believe I have written something that reads: "She has sworn not to like any more groups. And she will keep that promise, I believe she will. Let's just hope she will..." Today, 11 January 2016, 8 months after the statement was written, I am unhappy to announce that I, Ieka Durrani have broke the promise made.  I have taken an interest to not one, but THREE more KPOP groups. An d they are... 1. DAY6 Members: Sungjin (leader, acoustic) Jae (guitarist) Young K (bassist, vocal, rapper) Junhyeok (keyboardist, vocal) Wonpil (synth, vocal) Dowoon (drummer) I fell in love with them on the day of their debut, 7 September 2015. It all started with their debut MV, "Congratulations". I was merely curious about them, and I knew the curiosity would kill me, and i was right. But I had reasons as to why I fell for them. They are not like any other kpop groups. Firstly, they're a band. They play their own instruments. Second,...

For the first time in 10 years, I forgot his birthday... Wished him a HB every year without fail, When he didn't even remember my birthday. Got me asking to myself, "Do i really need to remember his birthday when he clearly don't give a shit about mine?" Today, i will stop giving a fuck. Sayonara.

Hello. Remember the girl who used to hate kpop so much even hearing the 'k' word would annoy the hell out of her? Well.... That girl is long gone. That girl is nowhere to be found. Standing (or sitting?) before your eyes now is a girl who is in love with the thing she used to hate. She is in love with kpop. And everything Korean. Like, what the heck happened? How did she come to love the thing she hated most? Even she does not know the answer to those Qs. Ever heard of the phrase "one thing leads to another"? That is what happened. Everything began when she started watching Running Man. It was summer 2013. She was staying at the hostel, along with her friends who love kpop and love watching Running Man. One day, she joined her friends, and little did she know that her action would change her life forever... She became a fan of Running Man. She became addicted to Running Man. She watched more than 3 episodes a day. She finished 3 years worth of ...

Alright! Here we go. Another day, another challenge. ;) Day 15: Describe a scenario where you'd bump into EXO at the airport. Well... We'll  meet at the waiting area because we're about to get on the same plane, going to the same place. HAHA! I always play this scene in my head. ;D Day 16: Secret bias. This guy.. Kim fucking Jongdae Day 17: A selca with one OTP (besides fav. OTPs) XiuHan! The 90-liner chingus. The oldest, but look the youngest... Day 18: Describe EXO-L. The most passionate, but sometimes stupid. That's all I can say. Day 19: Which EXO's superpower would you want? I'm torn between Kai's teleportation & Tao's turn-back-the-time power.. :/ Day 20: How would you want to meet EXO? At their concert tour. Backstage. As simple as that. Day 21: Favourite EXO comeback stage. My fav. comeback stage is also the last comeback stage for my ultimate bias... *cries*

I'm gonna continue with my 30-day challenge... Day 8: Favourite word from EXO dictionary. It's none other than.... "Yehet!" by Oh Sehun. ;D Day 9: Which EXO moment did you feel the proudest as an EXO-L? When they won numerous Daesang awards in late 2013 & early 2014. I cried a few times watching them on stage, accepting the awards & I cried listening to their speeches. :') Day 10: Favourite derp picture of any EXO member. I actually don't have any.. They still look hot while derpin'. xD Day 11: Which EXO member would you go on a date with? Kris. We'd go to a haunted house. So that i'll witness his reactions. HAHA. xD Day 12: Favourite meme of any EXO member. I have one, but I didn't save it, so I don't have it with me... Day 13: Airport previews, or stage performances previews. Airport previews, of course! Airport is where they look their best, and from there we'll see the...

I want to do something. Something that I never have done before. A 30-day challenge. This is kpop related. All about EXO. As a new member in the kpop world, I feel like doing things like this. Just because. ;) So here are the things that I should post everyday, but everyday would be a burden to the readers (and followers), so I decided to do it weekly. I'll compile & things in one post. It'll be easier that way.  So, yeah. Please look forward to it.. ;D (From 1 - 7 September 2014) Can you read it? Sorry for the quality.. Ok, let's start! Day 1: Favourite sexy photo of bias in EXO. For those who didn't know, 'bias' is our favourite member in a group. My bias in EXO is Kris. Now known as Wu Yi Fan. And I actually have lots of sexy pics of him, but there's one picture that stands out. One of my all-time favourite pics..  It's this picture. I love this pic because that's the first time (i think..?) he showed h...

These are my thoughts on the whole BaekYeon (i hate their ship names, btw) situation. I haven't publicly spoke about it since day 1, but today I decided to speak out. I posted these on my Twitter, separately, and now combined into one huge paragraph.. "I love you, B. But i think your apology is a little bit too late..? And, why apologize? Is everything that has been figured out by fans (about the secret coded messages thingy) true? The storm has calmed and then there you were.... Opening a month-old wound.. And now i'm having a love-hate relationship with you again... When the news first broke out, i was hurt. I wasn't sad. I was hurt. I felt betrayed. I felt betrayed because you used your fans to cover up your "relationship" with that girl. Sending secret coded messages on ig you claimed you created to communicate with fans, what the fuck were you thinking? Maybe your apology was sincere. Or maybe you only apologize because you were losing fans..? And...

Just another week left before I get to see my boyfriend.... ;) I miss this little munchkin so much! Can't wait to go back home & hug him! xo

I had my first Korean dream last night. It involved these guys... EXO. Yeap. I'm kiiiiinda obsessed with these guys. My first favourite Korean boy band. So... now you know. Aaaand, I had a dream about them last night. It was pretty epic. I don't know why it was easy for me to dream about them. Maybe because I was fangirling so hard last night, I even had a breathing difficulty due to excessive fangirling. Lol! So, in that dream, I was at this place that looked like a hotel of some sort. When I was going up the stairs, I bumped into D.O & Sehun. They were wearing a suit. D.O smiled brightly at me, I almost fell off the stairs. Then, I saw Suho with Kris & Baekhyun at the lobby. I went to Suho & asked, "You're Suho from EXO, right?" He smiled at me, but he didn't answer my question because there was a group of girl fans who were screaming when they saw Suho & asked for a picture. Pffft, fuck 'em! -,- Then I talked to Kr...