Life On The Outernet

FYI, I'm not gonna tell you what R is, or who R is. Let it be a secret that only me & my besties know. *sorry!* So yeah, I believe there's so much more to life than a boyfriend. Hah! You got me there! R is a name of a guy (or rather, a nickname; what we called him) whom I 'accidentally' fell in love with. I mean it when I said the word 'accidentally'. You see, he's not exactly my type. He's not really hot, not so cute, blah blah blah. But there's something about him that makes me appreciate his presence around me. I just don't know what. Maybe his smile. Maybe his personality. He's too quiet for a guy, ya know. And a bit shy, I guess. And not to forget, his NAME . He has a great name. A unique, pretty mouthful name. Haha! Maybe that's what makes me fall for him. When I said 'maybe', that means, I am not sure with my feelings. First, I think I really LOVE him. Then, it got slightly different, which makes me think that what I...

I think I have made a huge mistake. I have made a mistake by falling in love again. I should not have. I knew it would hurt me as it always did. But I couldn’t help it. I feel so helpless right now. I feel so alone, I don’t know to whom I should talk. I just can’t think straight at the moment. My head is full with the images of that boy whom I accidentally fell in love with. I should never have been involved with him. I should not have a tiny bit feeling for him. What if we weren’t meant to be together? What is things change? Would I be able to handle the truth and accept the fate? Questions are messing with my head. I have made a promise, if everything falls apart, I will pick up the pieces and stick it all together. Things are not like what they seem, and he is not like what he seems. I have to stop falling for one so easily. I need to learn how to control my feelings. I just have to whether I like it or not. Xoxo.

When a friend of mine broke the news that TH is finally coming to Malaysia, I wished I could scream at the top of my lungs. I wished I could run 100 meters while screaming. Lol! xD I was just excited! Too excited!. The feeling was just... Amazing. I was sort of speechless. I can't believe they are coming here. Like, FINALLY! I've been waiting for 3 years for this kind of thing to happen. I must say thanks to TM for bringing them here. I just... Wow! I can't even find a word to describe this feeling. I will finally get to see the boys, especially Bill Kaulitz. ;D

"This could be the start of so mething new..." I just got back from my favorite hair salon. I did my h air and it's awesome. I love it ! :D

7 FEBRUARY 2010 / SUNDAY I know I was waaaaay too late. I should have post this story a month ago, but I was too lazy to do so, as y’all know. On this date, something crazy happened. It happened at the ‘kedai makan’ where we always had lunch w/ friends aka classmates. Like usual, we went there to have our lunch. We talked, laughed a lot. 15 minutes later, my stalker came to the stall w/ a bunch of his friends (minus D & S). He was looking at me, as usual. His friends were ‘smart’ enough to have chosen to seat at a table next to ours. I was freaking out. You know how uncomfortable I get whenever he was near me. I started to shift my position from this to that, feeling uneasy. My friend was making funny jokes at that time and I couldn’t control myself. I laughed. We laughed, so loud that everyone was sort of staring at us, including him. It was so embarrassing. I didn’t know where to put my red face. I cursed my friend because of this, and my stalker just didn’t know how to NOT s...

*This is actually the 2nd essay that I wrote for my English assignment* I always thought of changing places with someone else. If only I could, I would love to switch my place with a person who has almost everything in her life. That person is Taylor Swift. I love her. I always do. She is a nice girl. There are many reasons why I would change places with her. First, she has talent. A talent every girl would like to have. She can sing and play guitar very well and her singing talent brought her to global stardom. Besides that, she is a sweet girl. She is also humble and never forgets where she came from. I have watched a couple of her videos. The way she talks always makes me respect her. She deserves everyone’s respect. She is the kind of artist the world needs. She is neither arrogant nor obnoxious. She is just a girl who came out from a small town to share her talent with the world. So many cool people surrounded her is the other reason why I would love to change place...